But the depression and mild anxiety will always be there, which I can finally control without pills all the time, which is something. It’s been a long painful 22 months since the incident. It still bothers me that she doesn’t remember me, it’s like nothing happened… I’m learning to move on now and even manage without thinking about the problems I had with my old job in the final few months I was there. I am even willing to pay a visit and stand up to my old boss. Cos basically… he’s not my boss anymore haha!
I’m glad I fought back to suicidal thoughts otherwise I would never have found a better job, made news friends, got to see Iron Maiden again and soon Boyzone.
My relationship ended after a few months together, which did set me back a little as I’ve been unable to meet and click with anyone else. I still feel it was a selfish act despite his reasons.
I still have moments where I can’t get on with my stepdad and he comes out with things that don’t make sense, which to him should be threatening towards. He can’t stop me being me! He’s partially to blame for a few of the problems I’ve had and still having now. I am working around these problems as of now.
The only time I have a mild panic attack is when I think I’ve forgotten something, which is normal for me.
Here’s to the next 22 months and hopefully PTSD free!